One Fine Day

Scene 1.
I saw the person of interest in one huge shopping mall walking with some girl I have known through a friend. Suddenly i feel like i'm the tiniest bug and about to be squashed by a gigantic hand. eh no make it a foot. quickly i shoved my sister away from them.

Scene 2.
I sat on a trolly like a sore-feet-loser because i have a sore feet. While talking to my sister, my eyes glaze all over to find a humanbeing interesting enough to be stalk. Unlucky, my glance falls on the couple. I was about to hide my giant size body among the crowd but reality hits me. no actually it is more on one particular long item from a cart in front of me. I stand up and trying to forget everything in reality. Coincidence, for me to face my sister, i had to turn about 30 degree to the left and there he was standing at next door counter. my heart stop for 0.0001 second.

Epilogue.
I purposely focus my eyes on my sister rather than at the back of her head. With some blurry vision of background i think i saw him look at me. Probably waiting for me to notice him and say hi. I did nothing. I make him invisible in order for me not to feel invisible. I check out the counter and walk as fast as i can with higher-than-mountain dignity.

note: this is who i am when i saw someone i adore from afar. When i really like a person, i tend get as far as i can from him. Yes i know im a loser who dont know when to grab a possible good opportunity. haihh!

i was born with 2 older brothers

saturday morning:
my eldest brother came by the house around 8.30. he had his breakfast and not long after he begin shouting to wake up the deads. Since my second brother's room is next to mine and stupidity hits me when i forgot to lock my door, he sprint into my room and starting shouting in-disco-like. "bangun bangun, cepat2 nk pegi ADIDAS sale." He,next went knocking the door my sleep-like-dead brother's room. while he get both doors open, he begin to burn all calories he ate that morning by jumping up and down. Please take note reader, he is not the same brother ive known since past 21(ehems!my age is always the same) years. He dislike crowds very much. he will give thousands reasons to walk away from it like, "im going to faint,i have headache "sot not so forth. so now he is the one who got hyped more than us? people do change into weird human from time to time.

sunday evening:
nothing much to tell but my soon-to-get-married brother watched enchanted for the second time. the first time he managed to watch 1/3 part of it and for second time he got to watched from prologue to epilogue. he sang and he laugh with the movie. i shall conclude that, walking towards marriage brings the sentimental value out of my brother's artistic(can be change to spastic from time to time) rusted soul.

It's not enough to take the one you love for grantedYou must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say..."How do I know he loves me?" -from the movie

this happens days back.

pizza smhizza, here i come

wake me when the shift is over. owh so, yesterday i started working at 7 oclock in the MORNING until 4 oclock in the evening. wanna guess what i did yesterday? nahh ill tell you.

5.30 am : open my eyes to see the world but only to see everyone is sleeping.owh shucks

7 am : still sleepy but managed to drove mi car to work.

9 am : Lepak with girls down below, drinking a pot full of nescafe to shock my body

10 am : running to the toilet

11 am : walk fast to the toilet

12 pm : went out to eat.

2 pm : running to the toilet

3 pm : running again to toilet

4 pm : drove back.

note to self: my new line of work, running towards the toilet.
note to all : i have sensitive tummy.

BuMMer

soo cousin going back in another 5 days i think. waaaaaaaaaaaa, one month happen soo fast. I feel like she just came back from there last week. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.. im gonna miss her again and again. I ask my boss whether i could take a day off tomorrow, you know to spend time with her doing hair, nails and eating out.maybe we could add up watching movie. but but but but she said I cant!!! wailing again... boohooooo.. I have some test to run tomorrow, hopefully they could not update the cube thus i can have my half day. tomorrow is the only day i got for her.. eh no, the only day she got for me. i cant touch her weekend since the parent will drag her everywhere. I cant be with her on thurs and friday nites cz she already promise her colleage buddies and cousin from the other family, another boohooo... soo tomorrow is my only chance. come to think about it, i never got chance to blow my bday candles. can i wish now???

mammma miyyyyyaaa!!

good heavens! please remind me why i like musical movie? owh yeah i hate it. Chocolate factory was fun but not mama mia. I actually wanted to go out 5 mins after it was aired. good riddence that i didnt since moi cousin loves it soo much.. note: im more into action packed movies, thrillers and epic but not sci-fi. whats with the computer rules the world anyway.. enough bout that. Im totally going to avoid watching anything similar to it.. and thank god im paying for it. totaly cool when my little cousin paid my tix. yeah yeah i ought to get pampered. the only thing i loike about that movie, series of ABBA's song... in present version. soo going to download it. hi hi hi.. owh shucks, i need to prepare my tummy for tomorrow. A 'FULL' day for moi. open houses everywhere. noon till nights... i should have fast today. selamat berkunjung~

edisi bahasa melayu

Jika anda berada dalam situasi dimana seorg yg pelik duduk disebelah anda dengan perangai yang amat menjelikkan, apakah yang anda akan lakukan?

ya saya mengaku saya berada disituasi sebegini. Duduknya disebelah saya adalah seorg yang bukannya dari negara ini, berkulit gelap dan dia adalah senegara dengan syarikat yang saya bekerja. mengapa saya berkata dia menjelikkan? nah, akan saya beritahu sebentar nanti. Dia adalah seorg yang suka meniru segala perbuatan saya dan sewenang wenangnyer mengambil peralatan pejabat dari tempat saya untuk digunakan olehnya. Saya amat pantang jika orang yang saya tidak suka tiba tiba mencerobohi tempat suci saya ini. Selepas itu saya sudah tidak menyentuh pen itu. Mungkin saya berlagak seperti kanak kanak, tetapi untuk memegang kembali pen yg telah dipegang oleh orang yang saya murkai(saya rasa diri ini adalah puteri..=p) yang sebelum ini entah apa yang org tersebut pegang(saya rasa saya mahu muntah). Sudah saya bagi hint(maaf tidak terfikir oleh saya perkataan yang sealiran dengannya dlm Bahasa Malaysia) kepada dia, tetapi apakan daya, dia adalah seorg yang lampi. Mula mula saya rasakan ini adalah biasa, akan tetapi apabila saya kononnya berlaku satu perbuatan yang baru seperti duduk senget sebelah sambil menopangkan tangan diatas "hand-rest" kerusi, maka dia pn membuat perbuatan yang sama dalam mase lebih kurang tiga jam ke satu hari selepasnya. Saya cuba cara baru, menggoyang kaki dengan pantas keatas dan kebawah kerana saya tahu dia tidakpn pernah berbuat sedemikian dan .... ya dia meniru perbuatan saya itu. Tekanan darah saya waktu itu amat tinggi sampaikan saya rasa saya mahu menghempuk sahaja kepala dia kerana otak yg menguasai anggota2 diri berada disitu. nasib baiklah waktu itu bln puasa, maka tiadalah Syaitan yang akan menghasut saya. Akan tetapi, sekarang ini bukan bulan Ramadhan. Maka, segala keturunan syaitan akan menghasut saya untuk melakukan perkara yang akan dimurkai oleh Allah swt. Saya ingin meminta tempat dipindahkan, akan tetapi suara saya hilang semalam. Apakah yg perlu saya lakukan selain dari meminta tempat itu dipindahkan?

so She is gone.

The wind blew off with her soul,
The sand cover off her physique,
The hands clamp together along with pray,
Oh God, Please kept her in a better place.

She was there just for a while,
But her strong will make it to the end,
Though she is gone,
She left a mark to our scattered life.

Here we are,
standing by her side,
tucking her in her bed,
and there she lies so peaceful.

I was there,
shedding blood for tears,
Hoping she will opened her eyes,
But truth struck me in the head.

so She is gone.

-Good bye my dear Noor Safiya-
To Ejat and wife dearie, I'm truly sorry... sigh~

i despise the unintelligent part of me..

sigh... i really have bad luck with the fuel... they really hates me soo much or maybe that my instinct is haywire.. Twice ok twice, i filled up my red buggy with high priced fuel and only seconds after that i learnt that the fuel price will be lessen(1st is 25 cent and now is 10 cent). The best part of all, i paid for a full tank. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... menci.. and gaji x masuk laei... another shucks...

dark entry

hmm...
.hati sakit but i still care.
.mata ngantuk but i stay awake.
.kerja byk tp i put on hold.
.badan penat tp i still drv.
.duit xde but still i smile.
.after everything i have done, still no one notice.
.this shows how pathetic my life is.

a ride on the bus

soo i have decided to take on challenge on riding a bus since yesterday. at first i thought it would not be a hard work at all, but seriously it is a bit of extra workout for me. yesterday my dad was kind enough to send me to the station but not today. anyway i woke up late this morning, so go figure. i need to run to bathe, ironing and lastly running towards lrt station. it was a very up n go morning. the evenings are still the same. catching up bus really makes me sweat. note to self: finish work faster and then u can walk....yeah walking not running.
i love riding on the bus, no actually i love when im not driving and no one cares that im not listening to them or even say anything. i like to watch objects moving, or people in the car or even some people walking by. i was awed by them. i can stare at them for the longest hours just to analyze their behaviour. and additional bonus for good looking ones. owh sue me please!!!
this evening, i laid my eyes on this one man sitting facing me. good looking you ask? obviously. =p~ he had earphones stick in his ears with ever famous polo tshirton him sitting next to a chinese guy whom was sleeping like a baby perhaps even snored. for the first 20 minutes he just sat there with eyes closed trying not bother surroundings. i can say he is not sleeping because of the comparison between a sleeper(man sits next to him) and i-dont-have-anything-else-to-do-so-i-just-close-my-eyes man. then when his stop finally close, he suddenly cheers up.. banging his head according to the melody of the song, mouthing every words from the lyrics and tilting back and forth impatiently. mind you, we were stuck in the traffic jam. when he step off the bus, i was sad actually. he keeps me entertained for almost 40 mins of the ride. but i know he knows that i was setting my eyes on him. he even looked back in the bus where i sat at that time i was shifting from one place to another. now i wish to see him tomorrow. wish me luck heh. maybe i could sit next to him. -yeah yeah saya gatal-