When I love you dearly..

I miss her a lot.Every day i woke up with her in my mind. She will also be the last person I see before I close my eyes. I didn't know that she will affect this much to me. Our last conversation strikes back. How I wish I'd hug her tightly regardless of my flu. How I wish I'd kiss her cheek like usual. How I wish I'd just stay for a while and talk to her.I know I can't relive the moment. I love you dear. I remember the last visit, your baby suddenly hold her hands out requesting me to pick her up. I was stunt, but I regretedly turn down her request by hiding myself behind your back. The second time she request, I couldn't hold myself any longer so I hold her. She took the longest look at me and then she returned back to you. I did ask, what is so special about her that I came down to visit her when she got her jab. I wish I could reply, "because both of you are important to me". I wish I could tell you that sayang. It hurts me more when her baby came to me and only me when we last visited her. Only after a while she started to be close with 2 of my friends. Honey, I enjoyed playing with her. She is soo adorable. I didn't realize she was trying hard to cross the railing under the table just to get to me. After I had decided to come to the other side and fetch her, she quickly got out from under the table and pull herself up just so I can grab her and hold her by my side. How can I not love her. Your mom noticed that sayang. I just hope that she will remember me until we meet again. Honey dear, I love you much. I love your baby endlessly. In fact I love all our babies endlessly. I hope she will grow up to be just the way you wanted her to be. I wish your husband have the strongest will to take care of her. I hope your mother live peacefully accepting that she had raised such a fine woman. I hope I am brave enough to delete your number. I whatsapp "rindu sangat" to your whatsapp. He read it. I'm sorry sayang, I thought he already deleted your whatsapp. Ya Allah, please give us who misses her the strongest faith to pull ourself together and not to mourn of our loss. Ya Allah, please give mercy to her mother, her husband, her only daughter and her family. Ya Allah, please give mercy to her soul, please forgive her sins and our's. Regardless of what, you will always be someone I look up to. You will forever have my love dear. Aku sayang kau sangat sangat.