we promise...

As i walk to Chancellor Hall, all the fond memories flashed before my eyes. I remember the first day i stepped on utp's land.. At that time, i cant believe that I was actually growing up.. as years gone by, I met a lovely friend. He was pretty kind to me and pretty talkative.. he is a funny man.. moments after i learn his name, i knew that he and i will be friends all our life.. our friendship become closer and closer when we do part time together.. After that wonderful time, the friendship drift apart but somehow, we managed to keep in touch even tho it was for once a month, eventho it was just a message.. I remember when i ask him about his convo.. he said " oh mine will be next year".. I said" o really?? mine too.. lets hangout together and enjoy our grad day together heh?.." He said "sure..ive gotta go, i have classes after this..bye". I think that was the last sincere chat of us.. After that we go for our own path.. I always remember him but somehow i couldnt pick up the phone n msg him.. time did pass by in a blink of an eye.. one day i received a call.. a phone call that can never bring him to life.. a phone call that make my whole life turned upside down.. he is gone.. forever.. i cried and more tears came down after i remember my behavior toward him.. i should have asked him about his health.. i should have msg him and most of all i should have known that he was sick for such a long time... I salute him for hiding his pain and only show his smile.. but i am mad at him cz he only tell one person and made him promise that he will never ever tell anyone.. when i walked into the chancellor hall, i remember our promise, and inside im crying.. when i received the scroll, i wish you was there... i wish soo hard... *sigh*

soo long my dear nikki...

there is a cat from next door neighbour.. she is really a good cat.. she always in our compound, like she was guarding the house. i think she is.. one day, she tried to follow my bro in law to work.. chommel sangat.. the bro leave his car door open and then he went inside. when he came out, he saw nikki already on passenger seat waiting patiently for the bro.. my bro pun, 'hey nikki turun'.. she pn turun.. she the cat listen to what we said.. not like some other.. rindu sangat dia.. i just heard that shes gone.. she is the only cat who listen to what i said and also the cat that i like the most.. note that i dont like cats... poor her, she died cz of batu karang.. sedeynyerrrr...
love you nikki....

'new day'

hmmm.. today is officially 'new' day for me.. i loike it.. first new for today is i went to buy curry puff at terminal.. ok laaaa but i prefer the khush's curry puffy.. yummies~~ lebih lemak berkrim...hi hi.. second new is our trainer.. first of all the human is HE.. yayness.. i pray sooo hard for a male trainer.. its not because of im a female or becz of discrimination.. sbb i like male instructor. ok ok maybe its bcoz of a little bit of im a female and a little bit os discrimination.. yada yada yada.. mls nk tulis reason.. he is soooo cute.. he is almost petite, with cute voice and sweet face... sejuk mata memandang.. hi hi hi.. the way he teach us is better than prasad + sunder combined... he is patient, soo far no temper shown, n the voice ermm like a lullaby.. ehehehheeee... mmg boleh tido laaa dlm klass.. hi hi hi.. i managed to steal some sleep while he was teaching.. ngantuk sangat.. after class i went to ou to pick up my point n shoot.. hwaaaa lawa.. hi hi.. i cant take any piccas cz the battery is currrently being charged...hu hu hu.. laeipn im not in the mood to point n shoot.. female problem.. i ately lavishly this morning and kind of throw it away after that... today i only ate chocolate yummies for lunch.. nothing for dinner.. bley x kurus one kg today??? hi hi hi of course laa not dear... nape laaa perut saya ini? lapar tp tkt nk mkn.. hu huh u...
soo there are 3 news for me... first not so yay... second is obviously yayness, and the third one is mmg mmg yayness... cepatlaaa battery nie charging, i want to point n shooooooot... if i have the mooooooooooooooood... tada~

when happy turns sad

Sha granddad passed away tis evening.. may he rest in peace... Let us pray to Allah that he will be among the ulama' there... Al Fatihah..

to sha: There are many obstacles in life, one of it is death.. you are one of the strongest person i have known, but for today and the rest please2 be strong... we will b there when u needed us.. insyaAllah.. your loss is also our loss...

life and data warehousing

one overly focused flower... the picture was taken to make the single flower stand out from the rest. Somehow, it turned vice versa. Did it ever occurred to you that you are too focused in life that you never stop and let things crumble upon you?

In life, you need to stop and enjoy the scenery. With that, you can be freshly focused in your goal. dice your view, so that you can see the different side of your life. slice up your cube life to see what is actually inside. rolled up the past and you will summarized what is good and whats not. drill down to memory lane so that you wont forget beautiful memories.

mistakes

my name is hurt. I have always been in dejah's heart. all i did was blackened her heart and make a deep hole inside her. Its been 6-7 years i have not activate myself. Now im going to.. aint she stupid to repeat the same mistakes over and over again.. i guess she is.. last 7 years she had been hurt and now again she is hurt. im soo happy since im alive again. i dont giv a damn about her and her life... she is in deep shit and all i care is my wellbeing.. i am hurt and i live in dejah..
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I am dejah.. for thousands times i have been hurt.. most of it was by people i cared and loved soo much.. why didnt i learnt from past? why did i gave my whole heart to be with someone whom i know will slashed my throat and leave me struggling to stay alive?? why and why... im in deep shit... forgave me for my language..