something stupid and sumthing smelly...prepare yourself for the worse..

when did u do a serious thinking?
mine would be when im cleaning the dishes, in the loo where you dont have anything to do, before i go to sleep.. this is the time where i would think about my future, my life and my past.

my future:
what company to apply, which job to search, where can i find money to help my parent, when will my dad..., who is my future husband(long list i have in my hand.. mcdreamy, mc steamy, jack sparrow(dont ask me why),a doctor, an architect, him(he is outta my league..)). when i do dishes, this would come up.. sometimes i would dream and sometimes i would cry but never i laugh..ye laa gile ke ape, tgh2 mlm basuh pinggan tibe2 gelak... naya wooo..

my life..
before i go to sleep, i would think about this.. this will help me sleep or not!! this one scares the hell outta me... ye laa nothing big ever happened in my life...i mean something that can turn my life upside down.. haihh.. i only see my life as half empty cup.. keep on counting when to finish it off.. haihh!!

my past..
now this one is a really smelly thinking.. ahahhaa..did u get wut i mean?? ehehhee.. but seriously, there are no other perfect moment to recap whats in my past book... time tuh laa nk senyum2, nk malu2, nk nangis2 pn ade gakk, nk gelak kecik2 pn ade..hi hi hi.. dlm bilik seorg dirikn, bley laa buat camtuh... sheeshh im such a wenk person...

sooo, just think... where and where actually u think about those stuff? on the way to the office, dok dlm blk seorg diri or like me?? ehehe...