teary night.

He kissed me on the forehead and then he left.

Abang balik cepat boleh? owh owh, i miss you.

too much of chocolate.

i drank a whole chocolate milk frappe and chocolate cream frappe within 2 hours. I skipped breakfast and lunch and my heart is swollen due to mysterious ail. I went out with ms diana and my heart cured for just the whole 3 hours. sigh. i hate PMS.

Oh bulan.

Oh bulan putih.
katakan pada mereka berdua.
yang aku cinta mereka.

Oh langit gelap.
Katakan pada mereka,
yang aku benci mereka.

oh matahari bersinar
Sinarilah hati ini
yang gelap dan sedih ini.

shoot me.

whats the point of me texting out smses but no one replied??? owh yeah i like on wasting my cents and unanswered questions. freaks with minus rea addition of uc!!!!

shifting gears.

soo i went back late again today. kerja? xlah. waiting for ms.Preety to finish her work and owh i was supposed to have a chat with a friend tapi i had to cancel it. its already too late. Lainkali maybe. I love to go back at night but i hate to get stuck with traffic light at junction where lies TMnet and Ericcsson facing each other. Im scared to shoot when i had to stop there. Dah laa seorang. Mau x cuak. **i dont like to be alone with insufficient lights around me.**gagah tak gagah, i turn up the volume of my radio. I look to the left, no cars. turn right again no cars. owh shucks. 1 second passed by. another follows. Then i saw this black metallic car stopped right next to me. hmmmm nice car. its a mazda.my dream car. The mirror was all tinted so i couldnt see the driver. Hati berkata, "ah biarlah dia gerak dlu.nanti ade yg kne cucuk2 nie.". So i let him drive first when the light turned green. Tapi, he didnt pulak. So i stepped on the gas and shift gears from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 and lastly 5. he still kept his distance but not too far and not too close. aik, Kenapa dia still x potong? hati berkata lagi. I let it be. after a corner, i drove my car to the utmost rightest lane so that he can overtake me. Jalan tuh super scary with barely seen lights and trees that can resembles into human sometime. Terpaksa bagi jalan xkn nk buat jln tuh macam aku yang punya. Tapi, he didnt move from his distance. aik.super pelik nieh. xpe, next turn ill take the slowest lane. Biar dia overtake. and then he did. but by the time he did, the place is safe for me to drive alone. Hati berkata, baiknya pemandu itu.sanggup menemani aku di tempat yg selalunya aku lalu bersama rakan jika waktu mlm. **dikala aku berfikiran positiF** to the nice driver thanks. i love your car. to others, ya saya takot berseorangan.

fb update: still x reti buat ape2.... cume add jer reti. hmmmphhhh....

ketinggalan zaman

yea. i admit i way too far to catch up with people who have fb. im still sticking with my belief, i wont create my own fb. but..... my friends did it for me. hahahaha... owh well i didnt break any rules right? yea big "double u". anyhoo, everything seems soo different. Currently i can only add people or click on confirm button. soo people who read this, do add me cz im too lazy to find everyone i know. i didnt even add the whole s1 yet. malas. people keep on doing quizzes, updates pictures, wrote something on someone's wall and posted new song/clips. ok wow, i dont know anything about it. i need to learn it one by one. hmmmphhh. it feels like im a little kid trying to absorb adults life. haih!

to be continued.

xde mood nk blog.salahkan perasaan yang kucar kacir. hati masih tidak dicuri, masa masih cemburu aku. rakan masih kurindu. marah sudah kebah(ye x marah dah). kerja makin mencabar. emosi terumbang ambing. kecut masih ada. wayang sudah ditonton. nantilah jika rajin aku cerita. jika rajin. jgn paksa jgn menanti. ada jika ada.

you have wasted my tears

sakit hati sampai nangis. boleh?

pandanganmu penuh misteri

we have the night to ourselves. we talk without barriers and without listeners other than us. Im grateful. To drive a loong way at night and to meet such a good friend. One of us is leaving but not me. Im scared to look at future. I suck in keeping long distance friendship. I have lost one and I dont intend to lose another one. what will be the future of us, i asked. neither of us replied. we left the questions unanswered for the night. Will you answer for us? I dont know whether the other of 'us' read on this. but i hope the other will. I just wish that we will become as close as this in future. but i doubt it. forgive me as for i have lost faith. on you and this friendship. but i do hope that you didnt. email me or sms me so i wont stray away. Calls wont bring you good. I know your reason. This is me and i sucked at saying goodbye. Others will said "till we meet again". but im here speechless.

how i love monday.

if you read my post before, i think you will remember the day i fell on my butt, i accidentally wish diana 2 days earlier and i blabbered to her about her surprise. hmmphhhh... soo another mishap mournday happen. fasten your seat belt and lets read through.

soo smite and gment are unintelligent enough that when they build a building that can squeeze in 500 people but only can have 100++ carparks in it. gile x? gile gile. due to this we for the past few weeks we went hiking to hunt for some meat and vegetables. One fine monday, the place where we used to pass through is filled with mud. imagine:macam di sawah, selepas org membajak menggunakan lembu. Imagine: a paddy field in middle of cosmopolitant building. When i saw the place, i squeaked " lets go back.i dont think i can get through this" they as in my friend as in Siti and Sue decided to go ahead. Yes i'm clumsy, yes i tend to lose balance even when the surface is flat. My foot managed to kiss the puddle of mud goodbye. Habis selipar kesayanganku basah. So the journey is still on. Jalan jalan sambil membeli makanan. i like shopping. :P. For the moment i forgot about what is ahead.

Perjalanan Balik.
Disebabkan saya tidak mahu selipar dibasahkan lagi, i tried to find a new path to walk. Sue and Siti already have 5 steps ahead from me. hmmmmm... atfirst i tried to use the right lane, but the land is not stable enough. So i decided to go with left lane. when the foot just about to place itself on the ground, i found out that the its a wrong choice of lane and thennnnn yes everyone, my foot is now an ankle deep. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa shucks, the oooey goeey mud is sliding next to my skin. eeeuuwww eeeuuwwww.I called Siti and Sue for the rescue mission. They grab both of my hand and started to pull me out. One slipper stuck in the mud. ok ok i can still do it. i can get out from this mud pool. yes i can owh im sure. another pull and my other slipper got stuck in the mud. yes im barefooted. I was about to cry cz my favourite slipper went down under laa. sadis. i went back with no slipper and mud all over my feet. I decided to go back home which is 20 minutes far if i drive like mad girl. owh well i did. Change into jeans and sped to the office. why did i come to work after all that, because i need to complete a certification which i "happily" register for it.

conclusion: right lane is the best path. always choose right. dont wear your most faved slippers to go hiking. last but not least, just forget about lunch when you have a paddy field lies infront of you.